I have many friends that doubt my strong calls against vaccines. I have many friends who roll their eyes at the computer screen and disdainfully remark about how absurd I am about always posting on Facebook about the dangers of vaccines. They downplay the tragedy that has happened to so many- simply because it hasn’t happened to them, or someone they love.
It’s sad to see so many friends live this way- but in reality… sometimes I do wish that it would happen to them, so they can know what I am talking about, warning about…
Yet, I would never wish Autism on anyone. Yes, my son is a gift from God, but this Autism is not a gift at all– it’s a burden. A burden that my son has been called to bear, as well as his family until he is healed. This doesn’t mean that I can’t stand my son- not at all- I embrace him every day. He is a gift. He brings challenges to us- that “normal” families would cringe at I am sure. But he is my son, and I love him.
Often I have asked God what He is showing me in this journey for my son. The only answer I have been given is that it’s to tell others of what happened, how it can be prevented, and how kids can recover from this tragedy. There is hope and that’s been the biggest answer of all.
So I feel terribly sorry for my friends who do not understand. They don’t understand the meltdowns, or the shopping trips gone crazy. They don’t understand when I have to cancel a trip, or not get something done for myself, because Isaac’s ABA is too important to let anything else get in the way. I feel sorry for my friends who have normal kids, who sip their Capri-Suns and eat their Cheetos everyday.
Sure I have nothing against Cheetos, or Capri-Suns, but I woke up a long time ago to what has happened to our country. Our kids are being poisoned… and vaccines were just the start….
When Isaac was vaccine injured- it took me TWO years to find out. Two years of asking doctors, wasting time, reviewing every book I could find about autism. Two years. And then I woke up. It was almost overnight that my view about our country changed. It was a whirlwind…. almost like a mid-life crisis experience.
And, no, I wasn’t looking for anyone to blame. I had myself to blame for not doing research about vaccines when my babies were small. That kind of remark makes me sick actually “Oh, she just wants to blame someone for what happened to her son!” These people that make these remarks are cold, heartless, and need a dose of compassion.
It reminds me of the Wizard of Oz, when the Good Witch suggests that the Bad Witch leave before someone drops a house on her…..
Sometimes I wish that Autism would happen to those that thumb their nose at Autism Moms who want recovery–who actually look for the cause of what happened to their child–instead of going with the flow, and expecting some kind of institutionalized outcome for their kid.
So I ask all my friends who don’t believe me, who don’t think vaccines caused my son’s autism, who don’t think that vaccines have Anything to do with ANY autism–put yourself in my son’s shoes. When he got his vaccines and what he experienced next–can you say that it wasn’t from the vaccines?
Put yourself in my shoes- when I took my son to every well baby appointment and let him get those ten vaccines at once because I had no clue. And then would you still tell me “Oh I would never let that happen to my kid!” And make me feel puny and small, and make me feel ten times worse than what I felt yesterday because your child is normal and mine is not.
Good job on your part.
Maybe that’s why you are not in my shoes–because you wouldn’t be able to survive a day.
Tara McMillan- Autism Warrior Mama to Isaac. She home-schools her 4 kids. She is working to recover her son from the ravages of a vaccine injury. ” One of the promises I made to Isaac was to tell others about his story, and hope that vaccine injury could be prevented by educating parents. ” She is also an admin for AMFAS (American Military Family Autism Support) which can be found on Facebook and at amfas.org
You can find Tara’s blog at www.redgreenlellow.com
WELL said.
I need to print some hard copies of this post to send to my former friends & family members. You know, the ones that are eternally offended at me for “sidelining” my relationship with them, after my son’s diagnosis. The ones who just don’t “get” why it was time to set MY life aside… and give every single drop of time & energy I bear into recovering my sweet boy. Y’all have these people too, right? People that actually have the stinking gall to think you’re “selfish” for not making time for them anymore? I actually had a “best” friend of several years that stopped by one day, to share details of a difficult situation she was going through. My son had begun to make his very first grunts & noises, at age 3, after living a life of total, non-verbal silence for the first 36 months of his existence. Sure, not all his noises were what some folks would call “pleasant to the ear,” but I was just so grateful for any sound coming out of his mouth… you know? As my friend went on & on about her life, my son came out of his room, recognizing her, and began to make some of his new sounds in the background of our conversation. After a couple of minutes, my friend covered her ears, in irritation, and said, “My God, can’t you make him stop that??”
Anyway. Thinking Moms, don’t ever stop. Don’t ever quit. Ever. EVER.
Just wanted to day from a mom who has two non-vaccine-injured sons; I have a friend whom I love & respect whose son is on the spectrum, and who clued me into this new understanding. Please be patient with your friends; they will come around eventually, I pray. I have. I have even gone so far as to enroll my older son in a Christian, non-vaccine-required school in town. We moved to this town specifically for this school, and the way they respect parents attention & questions & involvement. I pray that your friends hear you, really hear you! Just keep telling the truth!
I believe you Tara. The frustration of being unheard must be overwhelming on some days when you already have so much going on. Vaccines do harm some children; you are a great mom speaking out and getting everything Isaac needs to recover his health that has been damaged by vaccines and poisons.
My thoughts and prayers are with each and every child/parent every morning when I open my email and find this blog, connecting me to even more parents who are taking action at home and in the world.
For my part, I continue to do research as well. My journey began as a parent when, in the early 80’s a diagnosis of ADD/ADHD was just the beginning of this vaccine disaster. My oldest still has hand tremors and cannot hold a pencil without being in pain…and he rolls his eyes when I try to talk to him about vaccine damage as a child!
I guess we move forward one day at a time…you are not alone!
Donna
Thanks for a great post. God bless you as you help your son to heal.
My son is a healthy 14 mo. old and thanks to stories like these and tons of research he will remain that way.
The problem with healthy kids is that they are quite inexpensive and require far fewer trips to the doctor. I am convinced that America has a huge problem with that. Also bright, healthy minds cannot easily be controlled by our government, therefore the need to alter our future kids minds with drugs.
My parents passed up on vaccines 40+ yrs. ago. They raised 10 healthy kids who seldom went to the doctor and who had only chicken pox as a disease to be reckoned with. If we really look at the numbers vaccine injuries and fatalities are far greater to be feared than the diseases they are intended to protect us from.
As with all things in life, there is risk . But my son is far more likely to die in an accident than these diseases.
I’m ashamed to say that I didn’t believe it was possible, either–until it happened to my child.
The propaganda we all grew up with, and are saturated with, every day, is THAT STRONG.
That’s how otherwise decent, caring human beings (our friends, our neighbors, our doctors) believe all the crap, and turn into barracudas; they genuinely believe everything Big Pharma/Big Agra wants them to believe. And Big Pharma/Big Agra know we are a threat to them, so they have taught our friend, neighbors and doctors that we are a threat to them as well.
It is perhaps an unfortunate truth about human nature, that most of us are just too selfish to be concerned with anything that doesn’t impact us directly.
Again, I’m ashamed to admit it.